ok people
i suppose i got bored of LJ
ahaha

i dont like the tagging system
too...
weird...
restricted..
ah well

anyway anyway anyway

i have moved back to my old blog

http://exodus-universe.blogspot.com

yeap yeap!

MOVED!

Leon.

oh man
work is damn fun
fun fun fun
plus damn slack
busy at times..
but damn slack
aahahaha
i have awesome colleagues
i have an awesome supervisor!
i meet awesome people all the time during work..
but they mainly go out to smoke..
ah well
going to expo soon...
see you all there!
if you people are going..
ahahaha

i doubt i can finish the sinfonique designs by sat
too tired out to finish them
but still
i aint gonna ask jiexin for help
she is busy on her own already

if i were to be stressed...
let me take it all by myself...
no way am i gonna let anyone be pulled down by my own mistakes...

been a hectic 5 days...
seen alot
heard alot

i wish i can stop talking so much
i wish i'd lost my voice...
i wish i can just keep quiet without voicing out whatever that comes to mind..

i hate myself...
i hate my tactless behaviour
sounding like some retarded brat..
hate it like mad
regretting alot of things i have said...
regretting alot of decisions i have made..
regret..
the one main thing that is constantly pulling me down..
i regret..
i wish i had never...
i hope i can turn time back...
these flood my mind all the time...

i will keep quiet..
i will shut up..
thank you...
for reminding me..
thanks..

Leon

somehow i wonder why my posts are so wordy and emo lately...

well.people..
leon is going to work next week!
dont ask me for details..
i wont tell you
until i officially start work..
but until then...
i have to rush for sinfonique designs...

ah my head..
hurts..
but i aint got a choice..
i cant and will never pass this on to jiexin..
she had enough already...
so i shall finish this up on my own...
i aint getting the help i requested..
plus they are rushing me..

ah well...
coffee rush again i suppose...

i have this urge...
to go back to blogger..
i really feel like going back to blogger..
ahaha
livejournal...
i like the post locking thing...
but i realised...
i really dont have much to lock anyway...

i hardly put out what i really feel..
i hardly show my real emotion..
everything about me now is just a farce..
i dont show how i really feel..
just putting on a strong front..
raising my head up..
so that no one will detect anything..

now why am i putting this here =_=

i dont care anymore i suppose...

i will just go along as the days pass...

i suppose..
i am really just an attention-seeker...
or thats the impression that people are getting...
but who doesnt yearn for attention..
no matter how small it is?

i dont feel like myself anymore...
gah...
i am back to that emo emo self again...
i think i shall just go grab a coffee and read something...
take my mind off whatever that is bothering me...

Leon

i am seriously...
just plain...
sad.

i have a few reasons i wont say.
probably to a few people..
but not here.

its been a rough week.
mainly cause i rotted for the whole week.

i have no one to go out with.
no plans.
nothing..
nada.

its depressing..

ima go now.
sayonara.

Leon

suddenly..
it all became clear.
i have made my decision.
i dont care if it makes me look selfish in your eyes..
i really dont want you to waste anymore of your time on me..
go.
forget about me.

now i feel like emo-ing again.
i dont know why either
its just this sudden emo-fied feeling..

went for some job interview today
doesnt seem to be what i thought it would be..
ah well...
at least it kills time i think?

i'll check it out one more time tmr...
if not then i'll back out..
sorry guys
you all are nice people
but business doesnt really suit me..

ah well...
somehow everything seems clear to me
i know what to do already..
but i am overwhelmed by this sad pain..

seems like there is another lock to my icy cold heart...
locking away part of my emotions..
part of my feelings..
part of me...

seems like i am back to original self again..
well people, leon is back...
to his quiet self..
suppressing everything until i explode..

like a boy hiding in a dark corner to conceal his pain.
i seek that light at the end of the tunnel again...

leon

i just need some more time..

my mind is in a whirl...

i dont know what to do...

urgh...

i am DAMN FRUSTRATED!

Platinum Beat - TERRA

Found this song while randomly downloading finding anime to watch
pretty good..
ahahaha
done by one of my fave bands - MintJam

ok
i am bored..
but i detest nowadays i just fall asleep without warning
i have to rush alot of things pretty soon

now?
waiting for karin to reply loh.
i am pretty sure she is still sleeping
still say want to meet up to go school
=_=
nvm loh.
wait loh.

i am seriously disturbed
disturbed not as in crazy
disturbed as in annoyed/bothered by something

seriously..
if you dont say it out,
no one will know!
plus regretting the actions later on is rather stupid
dont you think?

i doubt avoiding the problem will solve it.

and and and

dont come and give me those rubbish.
i know what you are implying
then just say lah
no point doing what you do
fine loh
go do what you want to do
i'll just keep quiet.

sheesh

anyway
moving on...
saturday
alumni prac
same small group
stupid songs played...
its getting on my nerves as well...
gah..
should i give up?

anyway anyway anyway...
last week of SP3
i hope we can do well

i finally got out of the depressing spell..
its good..
for me..
i think

Leon

somehow.
as much as i want to be with you
i'd rather i keep a distance.
just in case,
other relationships wither and die.
then again.
being alone doesnt seem like a bad idea.