ok people
i suppose i got bored of LJ
ahaha

i dont like the tagging system
too...
weird...
restricted..
ah well

anyway anyway anyway

i have moved back to my old blog

http://exodus-universe.blogspot.com

yeap yeap!

MOVED!

Leon.

oh man
work is damn fun
fun fun fun
plus damn slack
busy at times..
but damn slack
aahahaha
i have awesome colleagues
i have an awesome supervisor!
i meet awesome people all the time during work..
but they mainly go out to smoke..
ah well
going to expo soon...
see you all there!
if you people are going..
ahahaha

i doubt i can finish the sinfonique designs by sat
too tired out to finish them
but still
i aint gonna ask jiexin for help
she is busy on her own already

if i were to be stressed...
let me take it all by myself...
no way am i gonna let anyone be pulled down by my own mistakes...

been a hectic 5 days...
seen alot
heard alot

i wish i can stop talking so much
i wish i'd lost my voice...
i wish i can just keep quiet without voicing out whatever that comes to mind..

i hate myself...
i hate my tactless behaviour
sounding like some retarded brat..
hate it like mad
regretting alot of things i have said...
regretting alot of decisions i have made..
regret..
the one main thing that is constantly pulling me down..
i regret..
i wish i had never...
i hope i can turn time back...
these flood my mind all the time...

i will keep quiet..
i will shut up..
thank you...
for reminding me..
thanks..

Leon

somehow i wonder why my posts are so wordy and emo lately...

well.people..
leon is going to work next week!
dont ask me for details..
i wont tell you
until i officially start work..
but until then...
i have to rush for sinfonique designs...

ah my head..
hurts..
but i aint got a choice..
i cant and will never pass this on to jiexin..
she had enough already...
so i shall finish this up on my own...
i aint getting the help i requested..
plus they are rushing me..

ah well...
coffee rush again i suppose...

i have this urge...
to go back to blogger..
i really feel like going back to blogger..
ahaha
livejournal...
i like the post locking thing...
but i realised...
i really dont have much to lock anyway...

i hardly put out what i really feel..
i hardly show my real emotion..
everything about me now is just a farce..
i dont show how i really feel..
just putting on a strong front..
raising my head up..
so that no one will detect anything..

now why am i putting this here =_=

i dont care anymore i suppose...

i will just go along as the days pass...

i suppose..
i am really just an attention-seeker...
or thats the impression that people are getting...
but who doesnt yearn for attention..
no matter how small it is?

i dont feel like myself anymore...
gah...
i am back to that emo emo self again...
i think i shall just go grab a coffee and read something...
take my mind off whatever that is bothering me...

Leon

i am seriously...
just plain...
sad.

i have a few reasons i wont say.
probably to a few people..
but not here.

its been a rough week.
mainly cause i rotted for the whole week.

i have no one to go out with.
no plans.
nothing..
nada.

its depressing..

ima go now.
sayonara.

Leon

suddenly..
it all became clear.
i have made my decision.
i dont care if it makes me look selfish in your eyes..
i really dont want you to waste anymore of your time on me..
go.
forget about me.

now i feel like emo-ing again.
i dont know why either
its just this sudden emo-fied feeling..

went for some job interview today
doesnt seem to be what i thought it would be..
ah well...
at least it kills time i think?

i'll check it out one more time tmr...
if not then i'll back out..
sorry guys
you all are nice people
but business doesnt really suit me..

ah well...
somehow everything seems clear to me
i know what to do already..
but i am overwhelmed by this sad pain..

seems like there is another lock to my icy cold heart...
locking away part of my emotions..
part of my feelings..
part of me...

seems like i am back to original self again..
well people, leon is back...
to his quiet self..
suppressing everything until i explode..

like a boy hiding in a dark corner to conceal his pain.
i seek that light at the end of the tunnel again...

leon

i just need some more time..

my mind is in a whirl...

i dont know what to do...

urgh...

i am DAMN FRUSTRATED!

Platinum Beat - TERRA

Found this song while randomly downloading finding anime to watch
pretty good..
ahahaha
done by one of my fave bands - MintJam

ok
i am bored..
but i detest nowadays i just fall asleep without warning
i have to rush alot of things pretty soon

now?
waiting for karin to reply loh.
i am pretty sure she is still sleeping
still say want to meet up to go school
=_=
nvm loh.
wait loh.

i am seriously disturbed
disturbed not as in crazy
disturbed as in annoyed/bothered by something

seriously..
if you dont say it out,
no one will know!
plus regretting the actions later on is rather stupid
dont you think?

i doubt avoiding the problem will solve it.

and and and

dont come and give me those rubbish.
i know what you are implying
then just say lah
no point doing what you do
fine loh
go do what you want to do
i'll just keep quiet.

sheesh

anyway
moving on...
saturday
alumni prac
same small group
stupid songs played...
its getting on my nerves as well...
gah..
should i give up?

anyway anyway anyway...
last week of SP3
i hope we can do well

i finally got out of the depressing spell..
its good..
for me..
i think

Leon

somehow.
as much as i want to be with you
i'd rather i keep a distance.
just in case,
other relationships wither and die.
then again.
being alone doesnt seem like a bad idea.

it gets really hard to focus lately..
probably due to something traumatic...
i dont know

somehow, it really is hard to do my work..
not due to distractions..
i dont even pay attention to them at all..

i guess that queer feeling is back..
that dark, depressing feeling..
kinda worse than emo-ing

no no no
if you think i am gonna slash my wrist and so on..
i will not...
like i've said..
"want to slash wrist? you might as well find the main vein, and cut along it all the way to the neck.."
you will feel pain..
there will be blood..
most importantly, fear..

fear cuts off all pain after awhile..
your body will stop bleeding after you've hit a certain level of fear..
dont trust me?
check the net..

it'll take awhile...
i thought i could get over it fast...
i thought that my reverting back to my old self would work..
i guess i am wrong..

its halfway through the second week of Studio Project 3..
i somehow lost track of the progress of my team...
its bad...
i dont know whats going on..
all i am doing, is updating the GDD
i need to do some of their work...
if not i wont learn at all...

somehow..
i yearn for a hug...
i yearn for someone...
to come up to me..
pat me in the back...
and tell me..
"its gonna be alright, trust me."
i yearn for a quiet place to think...

i guess its gonna be hard on me these few days...
ah well..
like i've mentioned before..
it will take some time...

all the best to all you people with exams..
ahaha
Leon

ok
this is really boring...
to continue updating from ytd...
in which i fell asleep while updating..
ahahaha
ah well...

been camping out in the library these few weeks..
dont know why either..

anyway anyway anyway.
ytd was alumni prac.

it
was
kinda horrible..

i dont know why..
but yea..
it felt kinda horrible to me.

alot of things happened here and there..
people leaving halfway..

screw it lah.
ah well

went out for dinner with sasa, zisheng and bryan..
it was really fun..
walked all over marina square and suntec.
saw alot of nice things..
esp wall clocks..
ahaha

zisheng was like...
filled with static lah
touch you only..
then...
ZAP
seriously painful..

i am feeling a little....
how to call it...
errrr...
confused lately...
be it emotionally or what...
its all coming in at one shot...
i am really having a headache...

i might seem to like my usual self..
but..
inside i really dont feel like doing anything at all...

ahhhhhhhh!

okok
it was much better to let them out..

maybe a little at a time would work...

anyway anyway anyway...
everytime i am at the library with ky, karin and hm...
there will always be this live drama happening...
ahaha
kinda interesting...

i feel empty...
like something is lacking...
might take awhile to find that out...

until another time yea?
Leon

maybe its better to be on my own..
i really feel that i am not good enough for anyone..
much less being a good friend...
emo-ing?
yea i am..
comfort me?

OK.
as i promised.
i will post that pic that i took



the blood scene..
ok this was just the place which i can take.
the rest were being blocked by the police.
there was a pool of blood further down.
smelled really bad.


had game testing ytd
awesome game..
good job gambit!



at first i thought it was gonna be fine...
until they passed me the report i had to fill in..
like zomg thick!!!




damn thick lah
this was like part of it only..
but the game was fun.
then then then
i discovered a BUG
wahahaha
bet they are damn thankful of that..

okok.
i am lying on my bed...
thinking whether i should go school or not?
i have yet to fix up the GDD

Leon

omg..
i am...
so...
DEAD..
and not to mention
bored.

i have been rushing my drawing these few days..
urgh

plus
studio project 3
my group is like....MIA..
omg omg omg

*inhale*
*exhale*

okok.
hmmm
what to talk about now...
national day

was supposed to meet up with my sec school band juniors
then
when i reached the designated meeting place..
they ps-ed.
like... wah lao.

then go all the way to orchard..
they ps-ed again. 
they go heeren.

then i decided to wait for the latecomers.
then we went to cineleisure to find the rest.
then comes the big problem.
me, junhao and big nic wants to go eat.
weiting wants to go Kbox
desmond and small nic wants to play dota.
so.....
lom cham pass...
end up all go play dota.

after dota. we went to eat.
ahaha
TOO BAD WEITING, NO KBOX FOR YOOOU.

after that..
i dont know why...
but they wanted to go far east.
plus its like..
gonna rain...

whatever.

go there do what?
they want to buy watch.

then we finally headed over to city hall..
it was...
PACKED - [sian meter - 1/5]
i thought i could get used to this..
but i was wrong

ah well...

squeeze squeeze...
managed to get into marina square...

then
inside more packed.
[sian meter - 2/5]

then when we went out...
not so bad... 
not as crowded as the inside...
why?
cause its drizzling
[sian meter - 3/5]

then went back inside.
they waited for natasha and jiong han.
i went to mac in hopes to get a drink
then...
QUEUE SO LONG
[sian meter - 4/5]

forget it loh..

then after they arrived.
we decided to pass on the fireworks..
cause i figured that its wet..
wet = no fireworks

went to pizza hut 
at least queue not so long
but..
i not hungry
then i saw shuwen
ah well..

went in..
they ordered food..
then chingkit wanted to go buy drinks.
then the both of us went down to buy..
then on our way up..
we heard the fireworks sounds..
wah lao.
i kena cheated lah
[sian meter - 5/5]
super sian liao..

cant be bothered lah
after finishing.
we walked around..
witnessed a fight..
bloody end..
all the blood..
police came in..
i pity the shop in front of the fight..
kena barricaded..
but good for the workers..
early release
ahaha

then halfway through i kena ps-ed again.
went to meet karin, huimin and khee yang at city hall station.
then we took the train to marina bay instead so as to ensure we have seats..
ahahaha
smart right??
come on lah..
its like... 2 stops back and forth only..
then...
i realised..
i like have to take almost the whole stretch of the NS line..
marina to bb
just one stop less to the whole line...

ah well...
the ride back was interesting as always..
reached home just nice at 12...

ahaha..
i'll put up the part of the blood scene later...
i couldnt take more..
cause the police were looking at me..
like as though they were thinking - "wah lao, this guy siao ah?"

i'll leave it as such first..
gotta go finish up some stuff first..
ahaha
until next time!
Leon

okok..
i am in the library..
with no one else in here
in this...
boring..
empty library

wanna see how the library north wing reading room looks like in the morning?



see??
empty right?
somehow its rather shiok
plus the internet is a little faster than later...

somehow...
i have been thinking...
will i ever be able to juggle school with cca?
i mean like..
i have already failed a module..
bah
i suck at time management..

ah well...
i'll try harder again..
ahaha

okok...
people filling in the room already...
blog later..
now have to take advantage of the traffic free internet!

ciao~!
leon

ok
i realised many guys are starting to tie up their hair..
sure brings back memories of the time i first tied my hair.. 



yea thats how i looked like last time..
it got longer..
until i cut it off..
ahahaha

ahahaha
apparently it was the first thing people remembered me by..

"who is leon?"
"oh, its the guy with the ponytail.."

its like..
sheeesh 


plus with that, i cant sleep during lecture.
cause cannot lean back.
ah well..
i wanna see if i can grow it back again..
ahaha
maybe i will tie it up..
maybe i will use a hairband instead..
maybe..
just maybe

ahaha
and damn
i am down with fever..
watch out nypso,
i will infect all of you on monday!!!
wahahahaha!

12 days and counting...
9 more days to my limit...
i pray i can finish everything before that deadline...
if not....

*sounds of blood gushing*

wahahaha!

okok..
i have to go see a doctor and rush off to meet my group members to do my project..

ciao~
Leon

here is a quick update.
not much actually..
just felt like doing so...

ok ok
so i am slacking

but but but
i am doing my work

i just pray i dont cough blood and collapse
wahahaha

ran-dumb pics..


whoo hoo~!
RACIST PARK
finally, a place which accepts racists
ahahaha



bottomless pit kicking..
ahaha

okok
i'll stop here..
i am still compiling the vienna pics..
plus..
i have loads of work due this and next week..
so...
i'll be busy busy busy!

until my next update!
Leon

ok i am dead tired.
i'll do what i can to update about the vienna trip once i am done with this week
maybe next week also..

band resumed ytd..
pretty boring..
other than getting new reeds to replace all my broken reeds in vienna..
wahahaha
i pray for a better repetoir..

and BRIAN
stop the chye png jie jie thing lah
its seriously disturbing me at night..
ahaha

okok.
i'll resume another time.
ciao~ 

 woots~!
time for a restart!
ahaha
i realised this place is full of depressing posts..
so...
REBOOT!

i think i've decided to stick to this site..
seems like an easier place to use...

we'll see yea?